Just had my first one, age 40. I became very obsessional, delusional and had times when reality slipped away completely. It was terrifying but at times i had the most amazing 'spiritual' experiences where I felt almost enlightened and was at once aware of the smallest particles in the atoms out to the grandness of the multiverse. I thought I could send messages and vibes mentally to others through this connection with the universe however those I send messages to didn't receive them. I was unperturbed at the time and thought I just needed to perfect my technique. My obsessions varied from coffee (I suddenly NEEDED to drink over 20 cups a day and it had to be a certain type) to revenge. I was also intensely suicidal at times but my ideas around it was very grandiose beyond what I have ever experienced before. This is all I remember for now. A lot is a blur and I have had to rely on others for information. The whole world seemed very strange.