Welcome to the forums. You will find support here so post away! Well done on 24 days without alcohol, that will help you. Not complying with your meds prescribed on the other hand will only lead to instability. When do you see your psychiatrist? Be totally honest and hopefully you can both come up with a good plan. I am on Lithium mono therapy for BP, Ritalin for ADD and Clonazepam for PTSD/anxiety. However, when I am in an episode with BP I generally take an anti-psychotic as well. Most recently I took Abilify and it really got the mania and psychosis under control quickly. I haven't had problems with Lithium except at high doses (taken when manic). At lower doses the only side effects are occasional tremors and thirst. Good luck with your treatment.