For a few years been calling myself gender fluid as it felt it fits with my gender description so I thought but perhaps I am unsure each time I feel masculine I debate maybe I am trans ftm but though I doubt it at the same time I don't see myself on T as I don't want to be hairy but the thought of an angular face feel right to me and flat chested. There are times I don't mind haviing breasts some days but Most the time I don't want breasts they feel impractical always felt this way since the day I started growing them and the memory of my mother buying me bras she wanted me to have beautiful bra I felt guilty but I just preferred sports bras as they compress my breasts. Not sure if too much information but I am unsure if I have no gender or both I think maybe both most the time. Only time wear feminine things is very rare I felt the need to in a day and half the day I feel weird wearing the dress I had on and I end up changing it how I feel the end of the day. This probably doesn't make sense but I have no one irl to talk about genderfluid or trans who is genderfluid or trans, even if I did I fear I offend, I hope I am not now.