I understand what you are going thru.
I was forced to change Drs due to Medical Coverage..and its been NO FUN at all.

The first psychaitrist...basically told ME..I was a lot to handle. OH yea? Of course i am I have mental health issues!

None of the Drs want to give me the medication that helps me the MOST...which is benzos...I only want 2 a day...they will only give me 1 because I have had alcohol problems recently. Yea, I'm drinking because i can't control my anxiety.

I need a mood stabilizer...I have been so out of control with moods..and called there various times..and this Dr. did call me back but I was already drunk...so moot in talking to him at that point.

I too have been to all required therapy sessions...haven't missed one...but I'm still stuck on the fact as to if I want to stay with these Drs.

In my area..they have Current Care which I STUPIDLY signed up for...this way all Drs can see your treatment. If I didn't have Current Care..none of them would know I had an alcohol problem and I would get the medication I need.

The thing that pisses me off so much with the medication...IS...I can have a reaction on ANY medication I am taking with alcohol...so why is it the only medication that helps me can't be prescribed....all chicken of losing their licenses.....and the patient level of care has gone out the window.