I was just hospitalized a few weeks ago for having severe SIs. I never actually acted on them, but my psychologist was fearful that if I hadn't sought additional help it would have just gotten worse. I don't have anyone around me to physically control my every move, but my mom has pretty much forced me to check in with her via phone everyday. I live in Chicago and my folks live in Pittsburgh. I'm sorry you're having to go through this, but it does sound like it's for the best, at least for now.