Welcome. I was just diagnosed in May. As hard as it is, and as much as it sucks, I've had to learn to accept the fact that meds and therapy really are the only way I'll survive. I've always hated taking meds, but at the same time, I hate feeling like crap. It's like a double edged sword. I'm currently on Wellbutrin and Lamictal. It seems to be working for the most part, especially after being hospitalized a few weeks ago and having the dosages increased. I'm still dealing with a roller coaster of feelings and emotions, but at least my SIs have subsided.