Since when I was a teenager, I view the act of crying as a bad thing. When I cry I feel weak, and ashamed of myself, like it's a thing I have to hide, even from myself. I don't cry often, in fact, I go months without crying. When I feel a lump in my throat, and my eyes starting to water, I try to block the sensation and to swallow my tears. It's like I need to block the act of crying. Recenlty I felt this sensation but I didn't cry, and supressed my tears.
I wonder if there is someone else who doesn't cry like me...and how can I start to see crying as a normal thing, not negative?