Lol....oh my gosh the part about the food is exactly what I went through the first week in my own farm house I bought when I left my bad marriage after 33 years. I had gone to the grocery store & bought EVERYTHING that only I liked & stood there looking in the refrig & cupboards & gave myself CHEERS.

I so relate to your comment

I realized after leaving that I never loved him in the first place & he had no idea of love or emotional connection....marriage was just the thing to do because everyone else was getting married too.

I sensed a lack of emotional connection but having grown up in a family where there was no emotional connection, I couldn't put my finger on the problem. Finally 2100 miles away & in a wonderful town surrounded by wonderful people I am loving life for the first time in 60 years. My parents died years ago so I have no pressure to return. Ironic because my mom was the one encouraging my marriage to him in spite of red flags I noticed....it was after she died & I sold her house that I was financially able to leave that same marriage.

Don't let your mom pressure you into doing what you KNOW isn't good for yourself.....listen to your own LOGIC & journals that hold the REAL REASONS why you left.....stay strong in spite of any outside pressure