when you've been married a long time and sex was once wonderful. We both put on wieght, it others me, not my hubby (about his weight I mean)he says me putting on weight doesn't bother him, but my body image makes me feel sick, I hate my body, my face, everything. I know I should love myself, dont tell me to try, i've had it drilled into me not to love myself for far too long.
My husband watches porn, or did til I found huge amounts of it and told him how it upsets me.

I feel I cant match up to the images he's looking at, it got to the stage we never had sex cos all he was doing was watching porn. This did not do my self esteem any good whatsoever. He has always had porn, each time I threw it in the bin he would hide some more.

I feel unattractive, rejected, unwanted and just cant get over this feeling. I also found pictures of naked or semi naked females he'd stolen from his last place of work, said his mates were having a laugh. I dont find it in the least funny, why did he keep them in his briefcase? I just want someone who will accept me for who I am. Isn't it obvious he doesn't fancy me anymore? I'm still the same person, just more of me. Please don't tell me to lose weight, I try, I have an underactive thyroid too which doesn't help. I'm not massively fat or anything, but even if I was, isn't love supposed to be unconditional? The images he was looking at were younger women and that makes me feel just great NOT

I AM SO UNHAPPY AS USUAL. I HAD TO POST THIS it has been bothering me for some time. I think this problem is bothering me as much as my past issues.

I know men use porn, but to the extent it is blocking out real flesh and ruining a relationship?????????



metime/jinny very angry. some of you may call me a hypocrite, so be it I've had enough. I was always the loyal one until he had an affair 18 months after marriage. He broke my heart.

flirting online makes me feel good, at least I get some attention