Since a few years back I had a sudden permanent shift of mood and mind, since then I've been struggling to enjoy life and gradually got worse to the point I decided to see a doctor... I don't believe in ghosts but I think something must have stolen my soul.

Just recently went to a doctors appointment, Dad came with me because I was too scared to go alone. Told the doctor just a few important things of how I felt such as just feeling very unhappy and would rather not be here there or anywhere, to be honest all I want to do is curl up into a ball and shrink in the corner of this room but even when I do that I still want to escape... I want to run forever until this feeling goes away, but at this rate it never will.

The doctor says I could very likely be depressed and that he will arrange a few counselling visits for me which I am grateful for deep down since mental health services are very hard to come by. He also prescribed a medication for me and after a long awkward moment I decided that I'll give the medication a shot, because to be honest I feel like that I cannot go on like this for much longer and even though I am terrified of medication I am willing to take the risk if there is a chance that it will make me feel happy again.

To be honest I am very scared and anxious about this whole situation but also hopeful, I am more scared of the medication not working because I will have to feel like this for longer and the longer I won't find the right medication the more its going to seem like pursuing an impossible dream... Honestly, I am not worried about the medication killing me or causing me harm because at this point I don't care, I just want to feel better.

Can't believe I am saying this but I am really desperate with taking the medication for the first time, heard that it will take a while until you first notice the benefits but hopefully it will be worth the wait.

The doctor has ordered a pack of 25mg Sertraline/Zoloft tablets and will be collecting them next Monday.
If any of you people would care to share your experiences with Zoloft please don't hesitate since I would like to know what to expect. Thank you for reading.