One socially ostracized,awkward gamer nerd here, with a veritable anthology of social disorders ,anxieties and mental health issues.
I have had to work REALLY hard to get away from the type of obsessive cyclical thinking you are encumbered with but when I did it was the best thing ever, because other people had opinions and either I don't care or I can relate and recognise then release. Moving on to the next topic.
It wasn't easy but accepting you can't live hoping it's others that will change is the biggest step.

All the best Shadix, I kinda smile when I see your threads come up. Watching u rant about the negative, callous,ignorant unfeeling bullies. Then watch some of the nicest most considerate, patient people offer you their time, and advice. Often the same people, which goes to show a genuine level of consideration on their part. Yet each time you trample rough shod in blind denial right over the top of them.
Yet they stay and try to help.

So thanks guys for shining your guiding lights, some of us do hear you.