I feel pretty much the same as you guys.

For most of my life, I had been neutral or masculine, and had dressed accordingly for the most part. I started dressing more effeminate when I started dating a guy since he seemed to like it. And I was ok with it sometimes...but there are times I'm distinctly male.

I also feel it's odd that even if I dress masculine, I look very effeminate, but I have a very masculine personality (even if I look very effeminate, which is confusing). Even my boyfriend considers me a copy of his male best friend in a female body and that I would get along with and relate to men a lot easier than women. He does know about my gender identity and seems to accept and understand it surprisingly.

I think being on hormonal birth control made it easier to just be mostly female but it never quite felt like I was the right gender. Now on non-hormonal birth control, I feel like the right gender, but then I have more dysphoria because I'm more "male" than "female".

I don't know...I just hate calling myself a "woman"...it feels wrong...I'm somewhere in between. Sure my sex organs are female, so I'm physically female, but calling myself a "woman" implies gender as well I feel. Does anyone else feel like that?

I think I'd feel better about my gender if I could just have some guy friends and be considered one of the guys, at least on some level...but I could be wrong.

Anyway, you're certainly not the only person that considers themselves to be gender fluid on here.