I'm really glad you posted this thread, Ember. I can relate. Apparently, a lot of people here can.

I'm just glad someone feels like this...I've felt like a fraud for a while. Even if I wear more masculine clothes, my body shape and face are very effeminate. And I like having long hair. Since I feel more male now, I'm going to have to dye it a more neutral color (it's pink right now ).

I've never been sure what to do to make me feel more comfortable with my gender. I'm probably not going to doing any sort of surgery or go on hormones, but I did go off of female hormones (hormonal birth control that is) and that helped me feel more right...although with more dysphoria at the same time if that makes sense.

I also wish I could go by a more gender neutral nickname...like not get rid of my effeminate first name but have a gender neutral option as well I guess? I might just wait until I move to another city and am starting over. But there's still discussing this with my boyfriend...