I lost a friend and my heart literally hurts. I can't cope with losing him, I've never been good at losing people. I lashed out after he died cause I kinda lost my mind (on Facebook.....) and the only people who were hurt by my words were the ones who care. To those people, I'm truly sorry. I won't let grief make me a bully. I will see through my pain long enough to recognize someone else's. You matter, I care. Please don't ever put your family through suicide. Talk to someone, talk to a professional, talk to me. It's not worth me having to look your mother in the eyes at your funeral and say "I'm sorry I couldn't save him...I'm so sorry".

I am so broken right now and it physically hurts my chest. I don't know what to do with this pain and I don't understand God enough to pray. I just wanna talk to my buddy, one more time.....