I have this strange but familiar feeling since 2-3 days ago. I feel like I'm losing the battle, I don't know what that means.

Part of me wants to strive towards something and make something of myself, another part of me says I can't do it, Yet another part of me says it's all pointless cause nothing has any meaning, life, me, my happiness, nothing matters.

Weekends are the worst. Only thing that keeps me going is music. I think I should change what music I'm listening to when I'm in a really dark mood like this. Anyone else feels this way?