a hell of a lot of time loss yesterday
well, memories in the morning, not too bad in the afternoon, and no memory at all of the evening (we don't even remember if we ate, but suppose we must have done)

again no sleep

today we are feeling very anxious (about nothing much in particular, we have memories) and we are upset that for most of the weekend, in sted of actually enjoying it/ knowing what was going on, we were watching it from behind a closed door (I guess)

makes us wonder if we actually deserve weekends- we never do anything fun for them anyway, and most weekends we don't actually remember what went on, why not just just stop time on a certain day and make us relive it over and over again

because that's how things feel anyway