Beyond, I think anyone would be depressed in your situation. However, I feel like normal life events hit us harder for some reason. Like the death of a beloved pet. I remember I got in a car accident in 2013 and for some reason it pushed me into a severe depression for weeks. Anyone would have been stressed out but because of bp my brain took it to another level. So don't be too hard on yourself if you are depressed. Especially with Christmas coming up. No one wants to be depressed during the holidays but sometimes it happens.

Contact your pdoc. If you have to go up on the ap just to help you through this rough time it might be worth the side effects. You can always try lowering it again when you're feeling a bit better.

I hope you feel better soon.