I know I worked for a lot of years before my MI got the best of me. I know its too much. Its too much for me too. I am so afraid of going back to a 40 hour work week for fear of a delusional manic attack (I have Bipolar I) and ending up in the hospital and losing EVERYTHING. It's the worst feeling in the world.

Please hang in there, and try and come here more often and post your little heart out and vent all you need.