I became so depressed starting a few months ago that I started having severe SIs, which eventually landed me in the hospital a few weeks. I am doing better now, but still am struggling with a whole mix of emotions on a day to day basis. I still have a long road to 'recovery', but in time I know I'll get there (I hope anyway). One of my biggest problems is that I am stubborn, but at the same time I am shy and quiet. I'm afraid to tell anyone too much, including my t and pdoc, for fear of judgment and rejection.