psychotic breaks are so hard to deal with...I have only had one when I was first put on a birth control shot. It triggered me and I slowly became psychotic and was arrested taken to the psych unit for hospitalization which is trauma in and of itself.
I was only there 5 days and they had originally let me out after 3 but had to go back in. My sisters took me back in, it was hard on them.
Please be kind to yourself.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi