Hang in there Rainbow. It's so hard and sad to loose a pet.

Don't beat yourself up for being depressed. be gentle with yourself but also know your limits and stand up for yourself. My support people try to assign me tasks during the holidays, cook something, make decorations, etc. they seem to think that if they keep me busy it will "make" me get in the holiday spirit. It doesn't work. I finally put my foot down and told them that I have to get through in my own way.