I was very very depressed when I was 9. But it might have been situational, I was being molested. It was the first time I thought about suicide. I had lots of physical side effects and was dragged to the mayo clinic for that, the clinic wanted me to see a psychiatrist but my father said no. I've often wondered if seeing someone back then would have helped avoid the traumas or if it would have been worse. Back then it was a very shameful thing, even just depression. In HS I was a Daria type. Very aloof and cynical. I had acquaintances but no real friends, I wouldn't let anyone get close to me.