Mandy, No I enjoyed reading your reply. I was interested reading about why we may feel the way we do, because our childhood expectations were often disappointed. This has caused me most of my interpersonal problems. It causes me paranoia to say the least. I have emailed T since today and she apologised for using the word "mad" and said irrational fears best described what we had been talking about. I so wish I could get through this problem like immediately. So many stupid little things leave me feeling disillusioned in people. My immediately reaction is always to walk away. OH well, hopefully this time next yr I'll be in a better place with this.