I woke up feeling kind of insecure today. I have this uncomfortable feeling that people are mad at me and going to throw me under the bus. Nothing happened, but it's a ruminating thought I can't get out of my head, and I hate this. Then, thoughts follow where I'm just saying to myself "you're stupid," "people don't like you, and no wonder," "you're worthless," or things to that extent. I know there isn't much I can do about this but I hope this goes away on its own.

I see my pdoc tomorrow again. I only saw her a few days ago, but she just wanted a check-in visit for monitoring since my meds were increased very recently. I'm not sure if this is going to turn into some kind of mixed episode. There are small signs that I might, but either way, something doesn't feel right. I feel like I'm on a roller coaster lately.