My depressions often start that way where I isolate, not go anywhere, etc., but then eventually I start getting impulsive and energetic (in a bad agitated way), yet I feel depressed and very anxious. Maybe I'm starting to lean a little more towards a "mixed state" rather than when I'm in a low-energy depressive state. Either way, it's hard to stop. I want to be able to make good choices for myself, but it's hard. I also have intrusive thoughts.