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Originally Posted by Liberada
I felt good after the first meeting. Then after I bought I was too ashamed to go back.
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This might not make much sense at first, but A.A. never demands abstinence of anyone and there is nothing to be ashamed about since A.A. is for people who *want* to stop but cannot. Drinking again is to be expected prior to recovery, and you did not let yourself or anyone else down. So as best you can, hold your head high and go ask someone there to help you fully understand this:
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"As soon as I regained my ability to think, I went carefully over that evening in Washington. Not only had I been off guard, I had made no fight whatever against the first drink. This time I had not thought of the consequences at all. I had commenced to drink as carelessly as though the cocktails were ginger ale. I now remembered what my alcoholic friends had told me, how they prophesied that if I had an alcoholic mind, the time and place would come - I would drink again..." (page 41)
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For years I had thought I was the only one in the world who knew I would sooner or later drink again, and A.A. is the only place I have ever been where that problem has been understood and explained to me rather than anyone ever scolding me for drinking again prior to recovery.