It's sometimes hard to describe in one or two words what CPTSD feels like. Of course you can look it up and see words for the symptoms. But actually describing the multi levels of this can be tasking without going into some uncomfortable detail that you don't care to share with most people. Shadows can be good or bad, scary or safe. I think our own shadow is safer than the shadow of someone else, or something else....sometimes. But our own shadow can trigger the bad shadows. Make sense?