I too am worried about being able to find a good man who will be able to cope with my BP/PTSD. Most would run. The men I do find are much worse off than me with mental illness and the relationship would be very difficult. e.g. current guy I am friends with grew up in a violent household filled with MI and was on the streets by 16. He hasn't had a job since he was about 18 either so is very dysfunctional. Still, he gets me and we are very close friends. He has a girlfriend anyway so it is a hypothetical.

Thought of dating websites but what do I say when they ask what I do apart from work/study super-part-time? At some point I would have to explain I spend almost 4 months of the year in hospital most years. Who would want that? I feel so disheartened. Friends say I am a catch due to my personality and intelligence but you have to find someone who will accept the rest. Right now I am benched. Maybe in a few months I will think of dating but I need to recover from this episode.