Good evening, i'll try to get straight to the point this time.

So, i am (Or was) friends with this girl, let's call her Susan. We've been getting to know each other since a year.

Since then, we started to talk a lot and we were starting to become really comfortable towards each other. For her, loyalty is really important and she says she rarely lets someone in. The strange part is that she never tells me a reason to, but i respect her beliefs.

So, in the meantime, i started to develop some feelings for her, and, even when i talked about this things with her, she never said how did she fell nor rejected me in some sort of way.

BUT she told me she started to see a guy (Which was odd for me because she said she rarely let someone in). So, i was ok that Susan saw other people, but as she described him to me, it was a total jackass, that guy stole this lady's first kiss. I was a little mad, but i tried to hide it the best way possible (He seems to be some sort of player).

Even she felt bad for that, but she thought about it so much, and the fact that i told her that it shouldn't be any problem didn't help.
So, as she was processing it, we didn't knew about each other for a couple of days (WHich in some way, i saw that comming), so i finally asked her, to what she responded that she was still thinking about this dork. I really had my doubts but in the end, i asked her "What am i to you?" to what she responded: "Your my dearest friend that I care for very much and I can tell anything to". Man, it's hard to write this down haha.

So, i told her that i felt like i was gonna be replaced or forgotten, to what she got mad and we started a discussion.

It was a little rough, it lasted a couple of days until we talked about this trash again, and in the end, i told her that i felt jealous and how did i feel. After that, although she accepted my apology, we both knew that there was tension among us, so i said i needed to work over my own apology (To myself over my jealousy) AAND, she said i got melodramatic.

Now i got angry and decided to take some time.

Guys, i feel both heart broken and dissappointed on both of us.

I'd like to know your opinions if may i ask, thanks and good night