Wow, many very good questions, Icare dixit. I don't really think my judgement is impaired very often, even though like everyone else I sometimes make poor decisions. I sometimes feel that I can be influenced by the people I get to know easily, but when it comes to terms I am pretty sure about what I want and what I need. I am pretty much confused about who I am, but it is more like I feel split because I sometimes am so sad and sometimes so happy and full of energy, which could also be linked to bipolar. Moreover I have a lot of different interests. I do fear losing people's affection but this got way better over the years. Sometimes, like now when I am hurting due to falling in love, I think I don't want to ever let anyone get close to me again, but I don't act according to this. I am sometimes very rational, but this also changed over the years and know I listen more to what I feel. I surely had some very strong borderline traits in pubercy, like black/white thinking, idealisation and the opposite, strong fears of being left alone, anger and sadness, self-harm etc. All this mainly disappeared over the years of therapy. Now I mainly experience depression without obvious reason and high phases of enormous productivity. What brings me inner peace is mainly spending some time alone and reading, writing, and then meeting good friends and sometimes cuddle up with someone.