So far I've taken those steps. Last time he put my hands on me I called the police for the first time. I wasn't hurt really, he never can, I'm a bit strong....but I needed the message sent to him that I ain't screwing around with his BS anymore. When the police came I told him that I needed him for an intimidation factor and to file an incident so if anything were to ever happen I have it documented. The cop was cool with me and helped me. I didn't press charges though.

I consider my college my best way out. I can get my degree, be educated, and if all goes the way it's supposed to I hope I will have a good career. Then I'm free from my dependency on him, his money, and his eyes over the kids while I am in class. Quitting school will only make my life harder. I would be emotionally devastated...especially since it's what everybody expects.

I agree that there are much areas in life I haven't even began to venture and I've been beginning to crave it. I think with time, suffering, and patience I will eventually be free too.

Since the police incident he hasn't put his hands on me, but words don't leave a visible mark....so they are still there.

I'm doing the best I can with what I got for now basically.