Lady..thank you...I think it is day 5...?
But, I am obviously feeling so much better...but still yucky...still things are making my stomach sick (regular food..coffee).

i keep trying to drink a lot of water..taking vitamins...didn't take a shower today which is not helping. Feeling a lot of anxiety. Overwhelmed...but i am blessed because i thought I missed a pdoc appt last week and I called to ask for an emergency one for today..and they said I have an apt. tommorow...

I feel like a big hole like something is missing..feels like anxiety/panic...can't breathe..

BUT...I am ALIVE which 3 or 4 days ago was very shaky and I was not sure I would stay alive...my b/f insisted I detoxed at home this time vs. hospital and I agreed...so its been rough because I know I was severly dehydrated because I always get that way...and I know they always put a heart monitor on me...so I was scared everytime my heart speeded up..but all that has kind of subsided..its just general anxiety right now.

He bought me a baked potato for later today which I think I will love. I'm rambling..I'm just so happy to be alive and so happy someone cared enough to ask about me.

As I got myself banned from a website I was on for 5 years last week while drinking...have no idea what i said...but I know i pissed someone off obviously...and I am missing some of the people that knew me well enough to know...how hard this is for me. Thank you so much.