additionally, do you ever see on the news or those tv shows...when some tragedy happens...and they say....the person was mentally ill...and was not being treated...and how something wouldn't have happened if something had been done to help that person?

I have told them that...and I have told them that I do not trust myself to go out of this house...until I have something to look forward to that is going to stabilize my moods..because i have NEVER been arrested and I feel so out of control sometimes and have made some significant scenes in the past month at stores when I run into people like my X...Medication has been called in for me...but it has made me sick or more anxious...so I need something else to try.

My own mother told me not to contact her until I was on some sort of medication. I truly DO belong in the hospital...but I am staying in until this appt tommorow.

I got myself SO intoxicated last week because i couldn't stand it anymore...and I will tell this guy that tomorrow.