I believe i am so where u are right now. reading your post gave me the chills. it has been about 2 1/2 years since i have lost my father also. my mom has also turned into someone i don't know. i can't even a true conversation with her. after about a year of his death she settled for this guy, who is still her boyfriend to this day. He gives my wife and i the creeps. she has always told us he is a companion, like someone to do things with. That is bull@#@. they have nothing in common and he is just there at her becking call when she needs a man thing to get done. she has never been alone and i feel that she should of been alone in that area for longer to get herself in together. Yes, i can feel what you were saying. My mom to has lost it. My sister was never close to him or her for that matter. i could go on and on.