We had our first couple's session today with our pastor (the man who married us). It went pretty well I was a little more emotional than I would liked to have been, but such is life. We talked about what we wanted and she still feels like she is not sure. I poured out my soul about my illness and the fact that I know that I had neglected her for so long. She says that she feels like I am not in love with her. I told her it was not that I was not in love with her, because when you love someone you are in love, I told her that it was not that I was not in love with her, but that I was sick. Before I had myself hospitalized, I did not realize what I was feeling and I thought that I could handle in on my own (stupid man) and everytime she told me I needed help I just kind of (well actually did not) listen to her. I wish now that I had because since I realize what has happened to me I am so much better. We are trying to climb that wall, the wall that seperates us now. Thanks