And not that this is about me (its about my sister and her child)..but I may have to travel to another state Wed to visit my niece who just had major surgery she was transferred there this a.m. and I can not handle it....she is in 8 hour surgery...I'm getting 90 minute updates and can't stop balling.

Its not my fault I am not medicated..its not my fault that my medical changed AGAIN...I have complied with treatment for YEARS...and have been in a rut for the last couple months without any treatment..waiting for cards...tried another Dr. who I hated...and the feeling was mutual.

If I were still with old Drs I would be fine