When I asked my T if we were doing okay, which I have a lot before, he usually says we're fine. The last session, he said, "The therapeutic relationship is fine." He specified the therapeutic relationship, which is a total change. I also felt a kind of change in how my T was doing things, but can't verbalize why or what made me feel this way. I am so numb in my stomach area which is where my abandonment fears live, that I have lost weight from not eating. I didn't eat lunch today because I forgot. I worry that T has finally grown sick of me and is going to terminate me. I see him this week. I have been terminated previously and that is playing on my mind. My exT told me he would never leave, but definitely did. Should I be worried?
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