I tired a few times. Most recently the counsler actually seemed angry at me when I said I still lived loves her. I'm not grieving so much anymore. It's just that it's still fresh, and I'm far away from my friends and family right now.

I never even got a first Christmas with her, because ahe left me that night. So coming up again on it, the first time since then. I'm not nearly alone now as I was then. I have people here. But just not people I can share these feelings with. That still haven't stopped giving me Hell for not hooking up at all with anyone since then despite the opportunities.