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Old Nov 09, 2007, 04:38 PM
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Do you live with others or work/have much contact with others, etc.?

Being alone can do scary things as we don't "have to" function. I was always amazed at how I'd "fall apart" when my husband was asleep or away and I could be reasonably sure I'd be alone, even if he was just in the other room and working on his computer and since he's not an intrusive kind I'd find myself crying hard or otherwise somewhere "else" and was always grateful I was able to get my act togther before he wandered in or needed me, etc.

Your unconscious is in control and obviously there are things you need to get out/work on? If it is so uncomfortable to you I would put "boundaries" around it; have someone call/check on you at a certain time every night or between times, etc. Hopefully your T and/or PDoc will have suggestions ideas that will help too. I would either face the "episodes" and look at them as if they were dreams or "contain" them somewhat in situations where you are with others and they probably won't show up then. But I don't think you can "get rid of" them without working through whatever is causing them. That's coming from you and your experience, not the "outside"/random. I lived every waking hour of mine for 10-15+ years in a fantasy world that was upsetting but, despite it not being anything like my actual reality, all the people/symbols/actions were based on what I wanted/needed at the time. If it is flashbacks, talk about them, if it is wholly made up look at it like you would dreams; there is little different between day dreams and night dreams. I use to have a lot of bad dreams at night so I could function during the day; if you're not attending to night dreams/mares then they have to come out some time and looks like yours have picked when you are awake to let you know "hey, you have a problem!" :-) Hope you get some help soon.
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