You took away my dreams
my security and care,
you showed me how to fear
instead of being there.
Selfishness was all you had
the things I saw were wrong
dad and I both loved you once
the path of life's been long.
You met an evil person
fell in love and strayed
no one else came into it
dad and I were both betrayed.
He took away my innocence
my joy my life my pride....
self-esteem and confidence
disappeared away to hide.
I told you that he hurt me
after many years of pain
couldn't take it any more
the guilt, the dirty shame.
You weren't very bothered
you kept in touch for years
with that monster who broke so many
It's your turn to shed the tears.
When I see my children
I look at them with love
protect them, hold them close to me
and wonder how you could.
So precious are my offspring
If in danger I'd die first
what happened mum to make you bad
I feel that you were cursed....
The day you met that bastard
was the day I died inside
It was the end of our family I'm in no doubt
And your presence I cant abide.
It wasn't him that called that time
you called him now I know,
because I'd threatened the police
you had to warn him though....
so YOU could stay out of the press
no matter who he's hurt
no matter of MY feelings mum
you rubbed MY face in dirt.
How sad it feels to realise
how little I ever meant
to someone who gave birth to me
indifference was always your intent.

jinny