Angela, Sky, and Zen....reading these posts by you has warmed my heart tremendously....you are all so very wise. I hope that someday I will be in a place where you all are and that I will have your kind of wisdom and caring heart. Although I almost didn't post this experience, I'm glad I did. Just sharing it with you has lifted some of my burden, it is a hard journey when you go it alone...........thanks for your hugs, I really felt them!