As I stabilize, I'm realizing a few things. One of the things I'm realizing is the fact that I've never allowed myself to grieve the loss of my friend I lost back in August. I've also noticed that I began to deal with more rapid cycling soon after (not sure if that's coincidence or not). It's like I'm being put in a spot where I have to finally grieve. I guess it's a good thing, but I'm realizing how much it's still hurting me. ****, it hurts.

Just needed to get that off my chest a bit. I'll add a trigger icon because I don't want to bring someone down thinking this post will be light.