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Originally Posted by BipolaRNurse
This year the holiday season is really hard on me, mostly because it's the first one without my husband, but also because I'm broke and can't really afford to give gifts to 14 people. I feel terrible about it, but what can I do? I'm just a widow on SSDI. I love Christmas but I'm just not into it this year. I wish my husband were here...he always made even the poorest Christmases magical.
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I'm so sorry on your behalf! It is hard to loose a loved one, so it will be natural to have some grief. I understand your feelings of shame because you don't have the money to buy presents to all. Could it be an idea to set aside a day (parts of a day) to either call or send SMS-es where you explain that this year you don't have the economy to give gifts to all (or have to give smaller gifts to all)? I ask you this because my experience is that if I have to do something unpleasant, I can makeit if I do relaxation exercises before and after I do the unpleasant.
About your husband: Is it possible for you to visit his grave and in that way do a bit grieving and at the same time get the feeling of still being close to him (remember all the good times you had togheter)?
Send good wishes your way!
