Thank you all for your responses. I really need some feedback from someone as the day has been long and difficulty. I am still full of anxiety and had to take an ativan to calm me down some but the deep sickness in the pit of my stomach is still there. Its a kind of dread feeling. I dread going to therapy monday but I know I have to go and face myself and my feelings. I just hope I can share them with my therapist and not sit there like some lump! I've had a hard time expressing myself of late. Can't feel anything and just "talk" out of my head instead of my feelings. Scared to share the feelings, scared of the feelings like I will loose control once I start letting them out.