There is a "time" in my mind that I imagine, when there will be contentment that the past is the past and cannot be rewritten, it can't be fixed and I can't go back and have what I did not have. I do long for that. A part of me "imagines" a time when that will be a reality.

Of the people you have chosen to share your dissociativeness with, have you ever had someone disagree with you? Have you had someone tell you that what you experience is not real?