I totally am. I am not cutting anymore and just recently went back to drinking because I am lovesick and need to get distracted (even though obviously I know this is not the way to do it and I am feeling so guilty for not knowing how to handle it in a better way). I won't do anything to hurt myself so probably I am safe but well, I feel that noone is really taking me seriously because there is something like a gap between my high functioning (but I am ALWAYS functioning and as they tell me very intelligent, I feel I could keep functioning dead and buried, because I needed to perform as a child) and my way of feeling. Right now I am mostly lonely, still agitated and energetic, and very, very sad.