When depressed, I am not the kind of not-getting-out-of-bed person. Yes, I sleep in, and yes, I put my alarm on snooze, and yes, mornings are the worst, but I keep performing what everyone expects me to, no matter what it takes. Depression for me mostly is being UNABLE to do what I know will make me feel better. Which is: Get up in the mornings, go out, get to work, do sports, eat healthy, contact friends, do something creative. I become petrified and cannot exit my cycle of dark thoughts, suicidal ideas and self-harm. I am running low on energy and don't want to talk to people because my concentration sucks. But that is it. I won't stay in bed all day, ever.
How does your depression show?
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