Wow, so this has been diagnosed as severe depression? I think due to that I must have been suffering about 30 - 40 episodes of severe depression (way more than hypomania). I end up questioning everything, wondering why I don't just jump out of the window, incapable to speak to my friends, crying and sleeping a lot, and even going to the shower seems to be an unmanageable task. I get very anxious and aggressive too. It is awful and everytime it happens I just stick around until normal or hypo sets in. That is also why I welcome hypo so much.