Well, at first I didn't want to take an anti-psychotic because I was scared they were going to put me on seroquil or geodone. But, they gave me a small dose of Zyprexa and it connected my thoughts. I was really having disorganized thinking, but it went away when I took Zyprexa. Then, I found out it was an anti-psychotic and didn't want to take it because I was scared I would get parkinson's disease. It probably would have been better if I never took that psychology course in drugs and behavior. Then, later I was told I needed an anti-psychotic but I could pick it. I tried abilify, but I was having disorganized behavior and my psychiatrist told me to pick another anti-psychotic. I chose Zyprexa because it helped me before. I was on 20mg and when I went to the state hospital, they decreased it to 10mg. At first I was agitated, but then I started getting better and the Zyprexa was helping. Then, I asked my psychiatrist if I could try to take it as a PRN and she said okay. I was taking it everyday until the nurse told me that I couldn't take it because it was for psychosis. So, I got mad and stopped taking it. Then, when I was put into a supervised apartment, the nurse was never there to give me my meds and she lied and said I wasn't taking it even though I was taking it at night. I got in a fight with her and told her that she was a bad nurse. I told her she just wanted that job so she didn't have to work. Then, the rest is a blur.