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Originally Posted by Theresa1991
When depressed, I am not the kind of not-getting-out-of-bed person. Yes, I sleep in, and yes, I put my alarm on snooze, and yes, mornings are the worst, but I keep performing what everyone expects me to, no matter what it takes. Depression for me mostly is being UNABLE to do what I know will make me feel better. Which is: Get up in the mornings, go out, get to work, do sports, eat healthy, contact friends, do something creative. I become petrified and cannot exit my cycle of dark thoughts, suicidal ideas and self-harm. I am running low on energy and don't want to talk to people because my concentration sucks. But that is it. I won't stay in bed all day, ever.
How does your depression show?
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My depression shows up as obsessive thoughts and anxiety.  It's confusing because I don't FEEL depressed, it's more questioning everything, worrying about everything, obsessing, blah blah blah. It's awful, but I know it could be worse.
HUGS to you!!
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...Out of night and alarm
Out of terrible dreams
Reach me your hand!
This is the meaning that we suffered in sleep:
The white peace of the waking.
~Edna St. Vincent Millay, "Song of the Nations"~
Diagnoses: Bipolar 2, OCD, Chronic Worrywart 
Meds: Lithium (reducing), Trileptal, Latuda, Risperdal, Klonopin and Xanax PRN
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